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Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Headache..

Disputes, and more disputes. That's what I get throughout the whole day.

First this, then that.. Sigh.. Missing you throughout the whole day..

2 new staffs came in yesterday. Crap. Is all I get.

Complaints and more complaints. So what do I do now? Everything, from A - Z.

Sigh...

And I'm totally not smiling today, guess I'm not gonna smile for a long long time.

My shoulder hurts.. Pain pain..

And.. Please cheer up... ):

2:05 PM
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Should I change my blog setting..? I don't know. Seems very orangey.

Been awhile since I update..

Been feeling down, everytime I saw photos of us..

Been feeling down, everytime I think whether it's "right to even be falling in love with you.."?

It's 2 different people that I'm talking about. Not one.

One of the past, one of the present.

No, I'm not together with anyone yet.

And I certainly don't hope for the worst, but.. I don't know what will be the outcome, of reality.

She's pretty, she's beautiful, she has a very innocent heart.

Am I worth anything to her?

I hope so..

Don't even know if things would work out for us.

-Sigh-

I'm trying to do all I can, normally. Without exaggerating things.

I don't know...

Is it even right for me to fall in love with you baby?

Is it even right for me to confess?

Would you freak out?

Is it even the right time..?

Sigh.... Faris... You're such an idiot..

7:46 AM
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Girl,

It's very hurting to see you like this.. Sigh.

9:51 PM
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Girl,

Please don't cry..

9:53 PM
Monday, July 13, 2009
Shaking you outta my mind was doing the impossible.

But making you flood my mind, was the most possible thing on this earth.

Throughout the day at work, my mind was filled with you, nothing else but you.

Now that you know, I wonder how you'll react to me..

Cold..? Warm..?

I don't know..

I'm trying my best on my own side, to keep this friendship going strong..

Trying to text you whenever I'm free..

Just that I'm cranky now, as what you say always when you're tired.

Had a very long dispute just now, with one particular customer. Basically, lasted for quite long.

I don't know. Managed to remain calm throughout the conversation, thanks to you!

Heh.

Still at work, working, working, working. Wonder when I would even have the time to meet you up, for a simple lunch..?

Sigh.

Hectic life..

But, most important, your O levels!

Must pass with flying colors kay?

I think I'm done for now.. Headache.. Headache..

6:24 PM
Sunday, July 12, 2009
12th July,

Alot have happened.. From day one, til around 300 days later.. Those were the memories of me and you..

Now? You're happy with him, and he's happy with you.

I still miss you.. But,

Thanks, Regina.

Alot I've learnt.. Alot I've lost.. Lost more than learnt. I've lost my sense of humour. I've lost my sense of feel. I've lost my sense of shame.

Quite alot of things I've lost. I've lost you, and I've even lost interest in flirting.

But now, it's all coming back again..

Thanks to someone..

But, the sense of chasing someone, is still not there. I forgot, I totally forgot, how to chase a girl. I'm back, to square one.

It's all about work now..

Everyday, I face different customers. I face customers who're disputive on phone, yet look damn blur when it's face to face.

I face customers who're damn seductive.

I face customers who're really nasty.

Everything just made my feeling to love someone, go away.

Everything at work just distracts me from missing you.

But something else is distracting me from work. Someone else.

I try, I try not to get involved.. I try not to bother. But everytime, it fails.. Why? I told myself, I told that person, and that person told me :

"It'd be stupid to be with someone else right after a breakup."

Right now, I'm feeling like shit. Why?

If you've the courage, read. If not, please don't. I don't want to be telling you this too early.. Sigh. But, there's no turning back now..

Cause, I fell for that person.

-Sigh-

What could be done here?

I fell for her. After 3 months, 3 months of telling myself, "I won't fall for someone that fast."

I'm sorry.. I'm sorry for myself.. I'm sorry that I've put myself in such a dilenma.. I'm sorry that maybe after this, we'd stop talking to each other.

No.. The gifts are not intentional. The gifts are straight from my heart. Those gifts, are gifts from me, to you. Without any intentions.

Sigh.

After 3 months...

I'm sorry. I'm sorry, to the person that I fell in love with. I'm sorry.

I don't know how to express my feelings further. I've lost all my love senses. I've lost the courage, to ask. I've lost myself.

I'm sorry if I hurt you in anyway.

I try my best, to be by your side when you needed someone. I try my best, to be there for you. But to consider the facts,

- You're tall. I'm short.

- Your present qualifications is gonna be way higher than me when you finish your O levels.

- I'm, not the ideal guy.

I'm just, some below average guy whom people chooses. Not, "I choose people".

I'm sorry, that I'm expressing all this in the blog. Tell me if you're uncomfortable.

Sorry, is what I am good in..

I'm not good in love, I'm not good at anything else.

I don't make people laugh, I don't make people smile. I just make people cry. That's all I do.

I make people shout at me, I make people annoyed, I get people irritated.

What am I?

Going back to square one, when I first learn how to crawl.

That's where I am now..

I realise,

I'm never into anything else besides love. Why? Can anyone tell me why?

Work doesn't even interest me these days.

Everyday, even while talking to customers. Even when my head feels like a bursting balloon. Even when I'm damn busy, I always, look out for your messages, your IMs. Anything. Anything that you text, just makes me smile, frown, cry, laugh.

You're one guidance.. That's bringing me all my senses back.

I'm sorry if I've troubled you this much. I'm sorry...

Sigh.

And.. I'm sorry.. For making you read this post.. And making you feel dumb after reading it..

Maybe after this.. We go our seperate ways.. I don't know how to face you next..

I don't know how to be talking to you after this..

I really don't know..

Awkward.. Yes.. It's very awkward..

I'm sorry...

Sigh. If you do have the courage, read. If not, please don't... It'll be very awkward. Might affect the way we're talking now..

I guess that releases everything from my heart.

.. Tearing again.. Nvm.. Can't blog no more.. Again.. I'm sorry..

7:11 PM
Saturday, May 30, 2009
After all these times, I still miss the times when we're together..

7:22 AM